three in the bed ......

and the yummy angell girl said ......................................

OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH

so proud of her.

Things to work on for next time ... but so please she wants there to be a next time :)

more to follow later hehehehehe

blah

tired, sad, lonely, frustrated, hurting ......

the whole thing on sat night has actually thrown me a bit. Thought i was over it, but i almost feel like i am dropping or something ... except it is a really bad drop.

Its also the first time that i have realised that as much fun as fuck buddies are, they arent always available especially when all i need is a hug and a cry. it is stupid - that isnt what fuck buddies are about, but i am just cranky about it all atm xxx

broken again

What is it with guys that think fisting is easy and you can just slam right in???

I met up with a guy last night, we were having fun, then he decided to try fisting me. He assured me he had done it before and knew what he was doing .... EPIC FAILURE!!! Within 2 minutes i had to get him to stop! He has cut all inside me somehow, it took an hour to stop the bleeding - it was gushing out of me and was also coming out in clots and today i am so sore and feel sick. I have also discovered that peeing is a new experience in pain.

I think that there is going to be a fisting ban from now on, or at the very least until i am sure that they know what they are doing ... it may be a 5th or 6th "date" thing i think.

OUCH!!!!

smiling

God I love my life!!

things may not always go to plan, and yes that sucks, but i am focusing on the positives!

I saw awesome friends. I had a beautiful spanking / paddling and caning.

I got to see secret squirrel ... it was only briefly, and he was working, but i still got to see him!!!

moving on

this post is not about anything terribly interesting, but important none the less!!

finally after  months and months, i get the feeling that Golum is ready to move on and has accepted that we are not going to get back together.

the sense of relief is overwhelming and for the first time in a long time i not only feel happy, but also calm. a huge weight has been lifted and i can let go of all guilt.

Of course i am a little bit sad - he was and always will be a significant person in my life - hopefully now it is just as a friend :)

new player

so there is a new player in the game .... check out my "players so far" post for an update

impromptu

Secret squirrel popped round for an impromptu visit tonight ....

he bought his camera (a very posh looking one with big doohickeys lol) we spent a couple of hours just kissing and hugging and spooning and taking lots of photos.

He loves my arse and keeps telling me i am as hot as hell. He says he loves my expressions, the way i blush, the way i am a cross between a frightened little girl and a maneater!

we didn't "fuck" tonight, lots of sucking, touching etc and just generally exploring each other. I thought he would leave and i would be all frustrated, but i am not! I am just looking forward to spending some more time working him out. He shared a bit more about himself tonight, some really private stuff. It was sweet, especially when he asked me what the hell it was about me that made him feel safe in telling me his secrets.

I have invited him to my party ... he is really interested in the kink scene and wants to explore. I think he is going to be a lot of fun :)

pisser

So I met pisser last night

we stayed at a hotel in the city, hotel was ok.

he was the oddest kisser, i cant even explain what it was, but it was just weird!

Things i learned about him ..

• unemployed ... this means he had a great night at zero expense! A mistake i wont make again!
• He struggles to remember what "white lies" he has told lol
• He took the idea that i liked rough sex and was verging on brutal ... but all while kissing. Don'y think he intentionally meant to hurt me, but he fisted me so hard that i started bleeding - A LOT!! And i think it will be a week or two before arse or pussy will be able to be touched!
• After 3 ciders he cant fuck anymore lol.

All in all a disappointing experience and a learning experience. Maybe I am not really cut out for the whole whoring thing. No i don't want happily ever, but i think i need to get back to finding those one or two guys that i can have fun with, who match me sexually.

Really unsure how i am feeling at the moment ... guess it goes with the territory

another awesome message

This message was received from a guy in Sydney. Normally i wouldn't even respond, but the message was so clever i had too!!!!

Well Raven, after a quick but thorough viewing of your profile I have courted, married and divorced you in my mind.

As per our prenup, you can have the beach house in the bahamas, and half the money as agreed.

It was such an amazing ride. Pity we couldn't work out what went wrong.

Your ex husband, Mike

My response ..... 

Just because we are divorced doesnt mean we can't enjoy each other in the bedroom still though!! We were always so compatible sexually ;) 

I think we should rendezvous quarterly @ the Bahamas beach house and do things that make fish blush ;) 

Warm regards 
Your ex wife 

Best message ever!

So I talked about the Teddy Bear in my previous post! This is how he got my attention ......

Received Nov 05 2011

Say.....  Do any of you guys know how to maddison? 
  
Brad

Sent Nov 05 2011

OMG best message ever!!!!  Janet

Received Nov 05 2011

So are you looking for a faithful handyman, a sweet transvestite or someone with "a certain naive charm" 
  
(I think it may be illegal to build your own) 
  
Brad

Sent Nov 05 2011

lol @ illegal ..... building ones own is always way more fun though!!!!  could I have a sweet handyman that is naive???  Janet ;)

received Nov 05 2011

You have your own lab people should know about? Sounds like you speak  from experience! 
  
Well, I'm probably built more like Eddie than rocky anyway. (but can't play sax) 
  
Brad

Sent Nov 05 2011

well Eddie is the living end .... i am much more of a Columbia type myself lol!! I can't play sax but i can blow a pretty good .............................

received Nov 05 2011

Eddie                                                                  Me 
  
Didn't like his teddy                                               Still have childhood teddy 
Switch blade                                                         nail clippers, occassional pocket knife 
Rock n Roll porn                                                    enjoy most porn 
Harley                                                                  BSA (currently not running) 
Sax                                                                      told I can sing (run karaoke) 
Shooting up junk                                                   smoking (only cigarettes) 
  
Still wanna toucha toucha me? 
  
Brad

Sent Nov 05 2011

can you make me feel dirty?

Received Nov 05 2011

What's this 
Let's see 
I feel sexy 
What's come over me 
wooo here it comes again

interesting week

so have been busy this week ... and not just whoring lol!!

Went out and had my arse spanked! That was fun and just what i needed!

Was meant to meet a new guy - apparently a Dom. Not only has he cancelled plans on me 3 times, he then showed up to the club where i was playing and left as soon as i finished playing ... without saying hi. I guess seeing my arse turned him off!!!

I met the truckie guy - he was really nice, had a good coffee and chat. I was well behaved and we made plans to catch up again after he returns from NZ next week.

I met a mechanic ... he seemed nice enough, but i just got the impression that he is only interested in me on days when he has nothing better on, so think i will give him a miss. I am all for being slutty, but even i have some self esteem lol.

Then there was the teddy bear!!! He is so very different to the type i have gone for before. He is 6ft4" and a big big boy. But he just made me laugh. We talked for hours. He reminded me of a biker but is a real gentle giant (though deliciously rough in bed hehe) and he sings lol.

The funniest thing about meeting the teddy hear, was that i took him to a local cafe ... and ended up sitting at a table next to the hot barista!! Barista was sitting there with a group of mates and his brother - they clearly knew who i was (or at least what i did hehe) ... both teddy bear and barista felt i should of just introduced them to each other and we could of had a threesome!! So helpful ... though the idea does have potential hehehe.

On friday I am finally meeting pisser ... and if all goes well he is staying friday night. It is going to be the most amazing weekend or a complete let down, but i am confident it will be great :D

three strikes and you are out!

hate it when i shuffle fuck buddies around so that i can potentially meet a new one and then the new one cancels on me!! What is worse is that the one i shuffled around for has cancelled 3 times ... so not only did he piss me off and will no longer get the chance to meet me, it means that i missed out on getting laid on friday night and saturday night!!!

Dirty Whore is not pleased ... though it means i now have a new policy .... never change plans for anyone. What is arranged is what will happen!!!! If they want to met me they can fit in to my timetable!!

sulky bloody minions!!!

so one of my minions cracked the sads today! Orderly feels i am not giving him enough attention .... awww suck it up didums!!!!

Apparently it is fine for him to be unavailable for almost 2 weeks, but god forbid that 2 days in a row when he has the need, and i am unavailable.

So he has deleted me off oasis and apparently wants nothing to do with me anymore lol.

On the upside, this opens up room for auditioning another minion hehe

At this rate i may be able to have my own little gang bang hehehe

Lunch time booty call

So today was the turn of Hose.

He is a really nice guy, ridiculously tall and a great kisser.

His 'eating pussy' prowess was awesome ... so I ensured he did that for at least 45 mins hehehe

The actual sex was "nice"

I hate hate hate "nice"  sex .... it was just all very nilla and missionary. I even lashed out and suggested a few things we could try. I am not talking about anything too 'out there' i suggested doggy style and anal lol.

Apparently just 'snuggling' was "nice"  AHHHHHHH I HATE THAT FUCKING WORD!!!!

I am troubled by whether it is a reflection on me, that "nice" sex no longer cuts it anymore. Or was there more I could of done to get things more interesting. Or maybe I just didn't give a damn - he fucked me, i sent him on his way and reached into my bottom draw ......... only to discover the batteries were flat lol.

I wonder what the Goddess is trying to tell me lmao!!!

Ahhh well, not to worry ... there is now a new player in the game, a Dom, who is actually on fet .... so that must make him legitimate right??? roflmao!!

watch this space ...........

so it was time

he picked me up as arranged ... i was so nervous


Barista  drives out the drive way and asked where my blindfold was. I told him it was in my bag. "Put it on" he told me. I did .... within 30 seconds we had pulled up. He got out of the car and walked around to my door. 


He pulled my hair and kissed me. Then he pulled at my clothing ... i am not sure how, but i am sitting in a car with nothing on from the waist up!!! And i did not care! 


Back at his place and i was pushed, teased, head fucked and taken to a place that i cannot ever remember! It wasn't just the sex - great sex is easy - it was the D/s!! how i have missed that. This person that knows so little about me caused me to squirt - TWICE!!! Since hitting menopause squirting took so much effort / concentration / and more stress than it was worth!

I wont go into gory details, but i was skull fucked till i gagged ... and then was pushed further!
I had my cunt pounded by cock, fisted until i squirted so badly that I may owe someone a mattress lol and my arse fucked so hard that his piercing bled!!! (I was fine hehehehehe) 


I then explored with stuff that i was never going to, and i am sorry, but i feel ripped off!!! I wish I knew!!!!  


This whore has found a whole new world!!! I was amazing before, but you ain't seen nothing yet people .... I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR .... 


Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman

My afternoon

After only meeting online @ 0500 this morning I got brave and went and met the Barista this afternoon.

WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW


I arrived where he works, he was busy but as soon as we saw each other sparks were flying!!
He had spent all day online fucking with my head, so by the time it came to meet I was a mess, nervous, excited, freaking out lol!
He works in a cafe, there were customers there. He told me he wanted to show me out the back. I went out the back with him. Once out of sight he grabbed my hair and kissed me roughly .... instant wet cunt!

After a couple of minutes he went back out to the front while I composed myself. He made me a coffee and I went and sat outside and whenever he could we talked. We talked about sex and kink and piercings and tattoos. Also turns out we have a few mutual friends ... spooky lol!

Finally it was time for him to start packing up.

He asked my to come into the back room again. He grabbed my hair, kissed me and forced me down to my knees. I opened my mouth and took his cock in it. He has a frenum piercing ... that was new. I was deeo throating him, gagging in his cock. Just as I was getting into it he pulled his cock out of my mouth, but it back in his jeans. He left me there on my knees as he went to front of shop again. I went to get up, but was told that I was to stay where I was. The shop was empty but doors were still unlocked. He summoned me to him, but i had to stay on my knees. I crawled out to him and right there in the shop he started skull fucking me again.

Again he wouldn't let me finish blowing him. He pulled out, told me to get up that he was taking me home. I was disappointed ... until he said he was going to be back at 8pm and that we were going to have an amazing evening of fun!!

I am still grinning, my cunt is dripping wet and my clit is throbbing. I can't wait to see what happens next!!!!

The players so far!!!

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I have discovered my inner whore!!!!

After many years of trying to fool myself, I have discovered that behind the boring mother is a whore just screaming to come out!

Who am I to deny her???

I think I am going to use this blog to record my escapades so that when it is time to be boring and respectable again i can look back on this and smile wickedly!!!!

So strap yourself in and hold on, we are off for one hell of a ride!!!!!!